Pervs & Bribery

God.

Fucking Blogger and Hello

are pissing the fuck outta me.

I cannot put all the pictures up.

I am in a horrifically bad mood.

I don't know why.

I was on MC Mon & Tues.

Cos I was feeling ill.

I just feel so...

Angry.

On Saturday night after I blogged,

I text Vans and asked her to pick me up

for supper when she was done

Khan later tells me,

she's upset and broke down in the club

so I wait

then he tells me she's on the way back

So i wait

then I get a call

It is 4.15 a.m.

and she's been pulled over by a cop

Khan will come and get me

and we will go and get her

He comes

The cop says the bribe is 500

Vans has knocked him down to 4

khan and I pool our cash together

we have three.

By the time we find them

it is almost half five

the cop has driven her car into some

dark, narrow alley

the bowels of the Petaling Street area

she comes to the car

pale and terrified

tear-streaked, dangly flower down her back

I am furious

I want to kill this bastard

She tells us we must

give her the cash and leave

but begs us to stay close

and follow them

A mini diversion

takes us away for longer that we thought

by the time we are back at the alley

she is gone

Her phone-battery is dead

We can no longer contact her

all the time she was with her cop

he had put her sim card in his phone

so she could contact us for cash

We are zig-zagging the highways

I am freaking out

Jo is feeling sick

and needs to spew

Then she calls

She's at home

We rush.

She is sitting outside

and I get out

and we hug in silence

clutching so hard our knuckles turn white

Later I make her food

she tells me that the cop said

since she was

a hundred short, could he feel her?

"Give me back my money, I'd rather go to the station"

she said.

He apologised and left.

And fucking told her to drive safe.

The sun is rising

when I tuck her into bed

We are shaken

but grateful that nothing worse happened.

The next day

I am barely getting by from lack of sleep.

I see old friends

talk about how our lives have changed

discover new things

and when its time to go

I can't.

So I stay.

Vans and I go out,

we have ice-cream

we bond with May

healing through companionship

We fall asleep together

the three of us

one missing, but there in spirit.